Today we continue our series–”After Baby Comes: Postpartum Recovery Tips & Blessings for New Moms.” I’m blessed to have a full line-up of very talented guest posters, so I can recovery and enjoy my new sweet baby! Today, Sara Elizabeth is giving us a glimpse into her journey through postpartum depression. Her story is strikingly similar to mine–down to it being with my second baby and after my first natural birth! I hope to share more later in this series, but you can read about my PPD issues here and here. Please pay Sara Elizabeth’s site a visit!
Guest post by Sara Elizabeth from A Mama’s Story
Standing in my garage, I reached out to feel the warm rain, hoping no one would see me like this. My face was sticky from the tears that wouldn’t stop, even though I knew I didn’t have a reason to cry.
It was supposed to be a joyful day, at least according to all the birthday wishes posted on my Facebook wall. I felt I was drowning. Not drowning because of motherhood, but because of something else—something that I couldn’t control or pinpoint. A cloud hovered over me and I couldn’t shake it.
My husband had our one vehicle, my four older children were watching a movie, and my three-week-old baby was peacefully sleeping. How I longed for sleep, too. I was tired. I wasn’t thinking rationally. I couldn’t string thoughts together.
While feeling the rain felt good, too much tactile stimuli felt overwhelming, so the closest I could get to going outside was to stand at the edge of my garage. I felt trapped, even though I loved my children and was grateful to have this precious new baby.
“Baby Blues,” affects up to 80% of new moms and eases with time. But what I experienced after the birth of our second child was far worse. It was dark. Very dark. And I wasn’t prepared.
Soon I noticed I had to force myself to get up in the mornings and if I hadn’t had my oldest to take care of, I probably wouldn’t have gotten out of bed. While “Baby Blues” can cause irrational thinking, having Postpartum Depression (PPD) is a different story altogether.
PPD can strike any time during the first year after birth. Symptoms include:
- feelings of shame,
- intense irritability,
- thoughts of harming yourself or your baby, etc.
With PPD, the simple statement of, “Wow! Your son looks just like his Daddy. I don’t see any of you in either of your children,” somehow translated in my head that God intended to take me out of the picture, that He would bring a new mom into my children’s lives, and if they didn’t see me in them, they’d have an easier transition.
While my experience with “baby blues” eased gradually, my PPD symptoms became worse, intensified, and consumed me. At my postpartum follow-up, I told the doctor that I was struggling. And as we worked to get things under control, I started feeling better.
With the help of counseling and a naturopathic doctor, who tackled the issue from a different angle by using nutritional/herbal supplements and natural lifestyle modifications, I was able to wean off the antidepressants.
We take the risk of PPD very seriously and have a safety net in place to prevent recurrences.
Fortunately, I haven’t suffered with it since the birth of my second child.
1) We enlist a postpartum doula or my husband stays home the first two weeks after birth. If you have family or friends willing to help, use them!
2) I throw the clock and schedule out the window and sleep whenever possible, regardless of the time of day.
3) Grab-and-go healthy snacks are kept within my reach, including vitamins and supplements.
4) I try to get outside each day.
5) We limit or eliminate outside-the-home obligations—and this may continue throughout the first year. My husband is great at enforcing this and guarding me.
6) I share my thoughts, regardless of how silly or scary they may be, with my husband, who can contact my midwife, naturopath, or doctor for advice.
When I asked the ladies on my Facebook page what they’d like to be addressed in this post, I was surprised not only by the number of responses, but by the e-mails I received, voicing embarrassment, shame, and guilt from feelings of helplessness, inadequacy, and isolation.
Some women even questioned their spiritual state, as they believed a true Christian shouldn’t feel depressed. Most pastors, Christian counselors, and other leaders with whom I’ve spoken, recognize PPD as a physical problem, not a Spiritual one.
If you’re struggling, don’t feel embarrassed. You’re not a failure and you’re not the only woman who has dealt with these scary feelings and thoughts. Don’t be afraid to speak to your care provider, husband, or a trusted friend. The sooner you can address the underlying issue, the sooner you can recover. In the meantime, The Mayo Clinic site has great information explaining symptoms of PPD, as well as Baby Blues and Postpartum Psychosis.
*Note from Erin: At the beginning of this post, I linked to a couple posts I have written about my experience with PPD and thyroid issues. Sara Elizabeth also had thyroid issues, and many of the PPD/thyroid disease symptoms overlap. Read more about her thyroid issues here. Neither Sara Elizabeth nor I are trained medical professionals. We are just moms who like to research. Please consult your trusted healthcare provider before self-diagnosing or starting any kind of treatment. This blog is for entertainment purposes only.*
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Come check out our other “After Baby Comes: Postpartum Recovery Tips & Blessings for New Moms” posts all month long!
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- 5 Ways to Beat Postpartum Depression, Naturally
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